Much Love Monday: Determination

Things i am grateful for:

Winston.

The way Tonks looks at me with so much love

Savannah

LeAnn

My doctors

My diagnosis

Earnin’ APP

thoughtfulness

empathy

Gloria Swanson

coffee

watching fluffy snow fall

art

art galleries

music that gets me pumped

Linda holmes

Rachel Y.


CURRENTLY READING:

Currently Listening to:

Much Love Monday: Let them Eat Cake

Gratitude List:

Winston and Tonks

Leann

Amber

The Losinskis

Ginny

Jen

Patience

Sleep

Rest – as they are not the same thing

Medicine

Nice Doctors

Dreams

Hopes

Pancakes

Coffee

Modern Family

My squishmallow

Grapes

Cheese

Beautiful Sundays

good smelling candles

pretty clothes

kindness

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Currently reading:

Much Love Much – honestly, so much love.

Since our new roommate has moved in two weeks ago, we have seen more excitement in the house that we have in the last 4 years. It has truly worked out for the best, possibly even better than i could have imagined…

I felt a lot of this weekend and i got to see a lot of people i dont see often. Matt i haven’t seen in years, it definitely felt different, but … i suppose thats life, and im so glad hes happy and doing well.

Janelle is as beautiful as ever, she honestly showed me so much i was surprised.

And where do i even start with Rachel – the girl shows me so much love that i dont feel i deserve, and i haven’t earned – i think she just appreciates me existing, which i am honored but not used to.

I cannot believe how many incredible people i have manifested into my life this year.

I am thankful for:

Nick

Leann

Jen

Karen and Geoff

Matt

Iced Coffee

Winston and Tonks

Ginny

Rachel Y

Birds

Raccoons

Dom bringing us pizza

pumpkin candles

New Girl

books

my bike

perfect weather

Bizza

Love Island

Sleep

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Currently reading:

Currently (re)Watching:

Currently Listening to:

well it’s almost fall so ive been playing Sufjan and Death Cab

Much Love Monday: Birthday Weekend!

This was definitely one of the better birthdays on record :)

It started with our work Summer Party, which was a big hit, and lots of fun stuff.

Then reconnecting with an old flame.

Then my birthday BBQ and after party, that was so incredibly great. The best people showed up, we had a great time, moved it over to my fav local bar. The bartenders were kind and generous, took our photos, gave me a birthday cupcake – AND a birthday shot of malort (with a candle!) and even took care of my bill (dont worry i super tipped them)
On sunday i went with my friend to a Diaphanous historic picnic, where everything was white, pastel and flufffy, and soft, and lacy, and there were cucumber sandwiches with champagne, and gorgeous huge hats with tulle. It was magical.

Truly truly truly a great birthday weekend.

Grateful list:

My birthday weekend.

My family

my friends

The people who show up for me

Smoothies

firepits

hammocks

bubbles

veggie hot dogs

our new roommate

homemade eggplant parm

cough drops

water

Love Island

my work friends

my bed

my cats

texting technology

the gals at Bokeh

Good people.

books

music

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CURRENTLY READING:

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO (cause i am feeling it right now…)

Much Love Monday: Birthday Week and Lion’s Gate

My birthday always feels especially powerful, but this year it’s also the same week as the Lion’s Gate so I am feeling especially powerful and goddess-like :)

Manifesting good things for my 37th time around the sun.

Things I like to day:

Try out new bars and restaurants

Archery

Museums

Art

Books

Drawing

seeing old movies at The Music Box

biking

going to Lake Michigan

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Things i’m grateful for:

Winston and Tonks

my Dad

my mom’s love

Brenda’s support

my sisters

my nephews and nieces

my job

my friends

meeting new people

friendly coworkers

Karen ( my boss)

Ryan

Evan

Nick

Jen

My neighborhood

my bike

The Chicago Lakefront Trail

SkyMarti studios

my body

my hands

my legs

Perfect temperature days

Leann Maria and Jenn

Chicago

I feel very grateful. I am so thankful.

I am thankful for my health

I am thankful for my wealth and abundance

I am thankful money and abundance flows easily to me

I am thankful I am so loved

I am thankful I am adored.

I am thankful I find love easily and effortlessly

I am thankful I make friends with good people easily.

I am thankful my special person loves me back.

I am thankful to be a master manifester. I manifest easily and effortlessly. Everything I desire comes to me.

I am thankful.

Thank you.

Currently reading:

Currently watching:

currently listening to:

Much Love Monday: Connection

Gratitude List this Week:

Aaron

Rachel Y/A

Mom

Manifsting

Alexis

Happy Hour

Cold beer

La Croix

Tonks

My G-Spot

Hinge

Grace @Nighthawk

greek food

Baby Geese

Time off

my health

sleeping in

finishing laundry

painting

colors

meeting strangers on the sidewalk

talking about life

What I’m Watching:

Stranger Things Season 4

What I’m Listening to:

Kate Bush

What I’m Reading:

MUCH LOVE MONDAY: Clean.

What i’m thankful for this monday:

the Libby App

and The Chicago Public Library

Iced coffee with cream

Evan

my mom

glitter nail polish

clean sheets

the new ridiculous plushie shaped like a Bomb Pop i bought on Saturday.

Peanut Butter

TikTok

Brenda

My Nieces

Leann and Rachel Y

Tonks, always

That i have a washer and dryer in my house.

Gardening

Helen

Kit Kat

Live music

my neihborhood

the Music Box

canned rose with limoncello lacroix

pretty dresses

bubble bath

Kate Mckinnon, Aidy Bryan and Pete Davidson (<3 farewell <3)

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What I’m reading:

What I’m Watching:

On PEACOCK

What I’m Listening to:

It Comes, It Goes, It Grows

A summary, and gratitude.

It’s been many many months.

In the last year I have completely fallen apart and had to put myself back together again and start all over. It has not been fun. It has not been easy.

I lost my best friend. The man I love said he loves someone else. I was completely alone.

I fell into an empty abyss. I lost all awareness and sense of self. I stopped eating. I stopped sleeping. I lost 40 pounds, maybe in part from shedding constant tears.

I had to seek medical help. I had to seek mental help.

I didn’t know if I would survive it.

But.

I did.

I’m here.

I’m, as they say, Medicated and Motivated.

I sought help, and i got it.

Love and compassion poured out from my family and friends.

I started manifesting.

I created a better reality and relationship with my family.

I created more friends in my life.

I created a kind lover in my life.

I have rediscovered the woman I was before I met Ryan.

I have reminded myself what I wanted, with or without him.

I let myself morph to fit into his narrative because I loved him – and yes, I would do it again in a heart beat. Given a million chances to start over, knowing how it would end, I would still choose him every time. I would savor every one of his laughs, every single kiss.

But this is the path we are on. I don’t believe the journey is over. I think this is a long story. And thats ok. Some of my favorite books come with a surprise twist toward the end. But of course, that won’t be our end either.

While I wait, i can still hear his voice, i can still feel him lying next to me. But, also while i wait, i enjoy the warmth of someone else while in their arms. He’s a good man too. And there is love and happiness here too. And thats ok.

My weekends have become so full with fun and friends that by Sunday night both my energy and my bank account are on empty – and it’s good. I couldn’t do that with Ryan.

So I have decided to b grateful. So I will continue to focus on the gratitude of what I have in front of me now, and not worry about what I lost. Because I will find it again.

Life is a long time.

What I am grateful for this week:

Leann

Lisa

Mae

Emily

Amanda

Ginny

Anthony

Evan

Mallorie

Karen

Winston

Tonks

My new couch

The Circle

The Spice Girls

Amber

iced coffee

Laundry in my house

cooler temperatures

riding my bike

Lake Michigan

riding my bike along Lake Michigan

Charlotte Tilbury Mini Hollywood Flawless Filter

my Libby library app

My mom

Emma

Gina

Olivia

My TIKTOK following.

my shoes

my new cute outfits

peanut butter and jelly sandwhiches

indian food

Apricot LaCroix

Karen&Georgia

My job

my coworkers

My healthy skin

My new Welbutrin!

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This week I’m reading:

THe Light of Days by Judy Batalion

This week I’m listening to:

Santigold – Disparate Youth